Thoughts & Prayers
It's so nice to be heard. I almost forgot how it feels. The last seven years at Ekko has taught me much about listening. Pastoring is listening. But to be Christian is to be in a dialogue. I am so grateful to the Lord for this opportunity to be spiritually directed by Dr. Marykate Morse. I am so thankful to the Lord for allowing to connect with such amazing leaders. I remember Dr. Morse as my dean at GFU. Then my professor, who introduced me to the idea of non-anxious leadership among many things. Because of her our church now has a rich relationship with Deborah Loyd and Ken Loyd. And she's my Spiritual Director? I'm lucky, or should I say, I'm blessed.
I know the Lord wants to invest in me for the sake of others as Todd Hunter would always say. I know that all this will lead to greater fruitfulness and service to the tribe I belong to and the ministries I am a part of... but I can't help feel loved. Father, thank you for loving me. It feels so weird, awkward, foreign but it feels so good to know that someone is listening. I do not know what will come of all this but I do hope to find myself closer to you.
We got right into it. She asked about my life. I felt myself struggling to tell the story. It's weird, I thought I was pretty good at telling my narrative. Perhaps it's because it was our first day, perhaps I was nervous. There were so many things that I could've unearthed, I forgot how traumatic and amazing my journey was/is.
We went over my time in Korea, my first traumatic accident where adults didn't give me the benefit of the doubt and tend to my wounds (broken shoulder). We talked about my time in Atlanta, name change, leaving dad with my mom for like two days, etc. I shared about my conversion experience and my teen years among many other things.
I look forward to inviting Marykate into my early ministry era and the shift into full-time ministry (adult years, 20's and 30's).
Looking forward to the next session.